Jennifer Saake

"Restore. Restore! RESTORE," I would whiningly command God daily, sometimes hourly. For years, I have been obsessed with the word RESTORE, convinced (though extra-Biblical experiences) that God had personally promised me that He was in the process of restoring, in this earthly lifetime, many specific things I counted as broken .  See Matthew 11: 28-30 I am finally learning to stop being so self-absorbed in demanding  mORE and more of my own way, by learning to actually trust and REST in Jesus and His best plans.  , In Matthew 11:28-30, after replying affirmatively to John the Baptist's inquiry as to whether He was the Christ or not, then going on to confront various cities for the sin of their unbelief in His authority as God, Jesus said,  "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.   Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ...

Are you specifically looking for my stroke story?  If you want to start directly there, jump down about 6 paragraphs. Look for the bolded line about October, 2011, then back up one paragraph for a little more context. I've lived with   myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS)  since my teens. I am not cured, but thankfully my illness is (current as of  early 2021)  well-managed with rest, routine, and medication .  Having lived through decades of remissions and relapses, sometimes being so sick that it feels like the act of breathing is more demanding than I can muster, I've spent seasons whimpering in bed without the strength to even roll over.  Even on "good days" ME/CFS is to just "being tired" what a hurricane is to a shower of sprinkles. Think of a time when you had a nasty case of the flu with aches, fatigue so severe you couldn't think straight, system dysregulation like unanticipated blood pressure drops and chills and fevers...