Jennifer Saake

 I turned 39 less than 3 months before my  strokes .  This month I'll turn 49. I wasn't supposed to live. Not alive to the hospital. Not through the first night. Not through the first three days. Not through the first week... Surviving an entire decade makes no sense, medically speaking. I am (now) beyond grateful. (Oh boy, was I mad I had survived at first though!) I've gotten to raise two kids into adulthood and another is starting his second year of high school next month. (My initial worry that I would never get to raise them, was for totally different reasons !) I did not leave my husband a widower. I am re-learning many skills and making an impact in lives, because of the strokes, living a platform I didn't want,. I feel thoughtful today, I can't quite wrap my head around nearly a decade.  I am very thankful. Overwhelmingly grateful. Happy. Joyful. Awe-filled Also a little sad. Melancholy. Disoriented. Confused. Bewildered. Many memories of this past decade ar...

With babies in Heaven as well as the blessing of raising children on earth, Mother's Day is always a mixed bag of extreme emotions for me. Undoubtedly, I am overwhelmingly thankful for my living miracles, likely much more aware of what a gift they are than I would have been had they come easily. Perhaps intensified by "knowing what I am missing" as I watch my earthly children grow, though it has been over 19 years since my 3rd pregnancy loss, my heart is still tender concerning my kids no longer here. Read more  about infertility, miscarriage, and adoption loss, at  JenniferSaake.blogspot.com/2021/04/hannahs.html  and be my guest to read the first chapter of my book, Hannah's Hope , free at   hannahshopebook.com/media/HannahHopeChapter1.pd This will be my first MD in a new church and I already know that there will be a baby dedication ceremony this week, so I'm half holding my breath as I wait to see how the service will unfold. Thankfully, we are a verse-by-ve...