Jennifer Saake

I, Jennifer Saake , stumbled into the online world in my mid-early 20s, around 1995 or '96. As you may have noticed, I've been fairly quiet this past couple of years. Here's why. After processing my own journey online for so long, last year I sort of ran out of words and went into public hibernation. As I prepare to once again start fresh in an attempt to plunge back into the blogosphere, here's my backstory, divided into about 10 sub-headings so than you can skim topics. (Many of the headings are linked to more detailed pages.): Infertility, Miscarriages, Adoption Losses Three years in, our infertility and loss journeys became lived out in the public eye, as God allowed me the incredible privilege of interacting with tens of thousands of other grieving women, both through  Hannah's Prayer Ministries  and then, a decade later, with the publication of  my first book , Hannah's Hope: Seeking God's Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage, & Adoptio...

"Restore. Restore! RESTORE," I would whiningly command God daily, sometimes hourly. For years, I have been obsessed with the word RESTORE, convinced (though extra-Biblical experiences) that God had personally promised me that He was in the process of restoring, in this earthly lifetime, many specific things I counted as broken .  See Matthew 11: 28-30 I am finally learning to stop being so self-absorbed in demanding  mORE and more of my own way, by learning to actually trust and REST in Jesus and His best plans.  , In Matthew 11:28-30, after replying affirmatively to John the Baptist's inquiry as to whether He was the Christ or not, then going on to confront various cities for the sin of their unbelief in His authority as God, Jesus said,  "Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.   Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ...

JenniferSaake   spring 2019 I grew up on the mission field, spending 7 years in Japan. (No, I did not learn more than a very few words of the language.) While I moved about 17 times in childhood, most recently I lived in Northern Nevada, 45 minutes from Lake Tahoe, for over two decades. We moved to Arizona in 2019. I can touch my nose with the tip of my tongue and can pick up items with my toes. There were 6  Jennifer s in my first grade class in the the late 1970s. Find out more on the  Saake Pronunciation Guide .                                                                                                    Our journey to parenthood took the long path of infertility, miscarriage, and adoption loss that I've briefly reco...